Dear Strangers,
It is Thursday today. I feel I have finally had a successful day today.
This week has actually been different than what I am used to, than what I set out for myself and planned to have.
Before each Monday starts, I plan myself a week with all of the things that I want to accomplish and usually I do give my best to do it. This week I started Monday and the week without a plan, which is always a bad idea. I had it in my head, just not on the paper, and that is the problem. Everything that is not written down, whether on paper or typed down just slips out of my hands.
Lately, I have been really focused on my goals. This week I slipped. This week my focus lacked. This week started wrong. On Monday, I was spent time with my sister and drove her to the bus station. On Tuesday I had a coffee catch up with my best friend that I haven't seen for the past month. And on Wednesday, I used the time after work to just sleep.
This is not how my week usually goes. I usually focus well and want to focus on my goals from Monday to Friday and have what I call "full days". I want to get back to the Suzhou feeling when there wasn't a moment of my day that I was wasting. And my life was filled with people, memories and places too, aside from my work and studies. I know things change and that your life studying and working are not the same, but wasting in any shape or form is not something I want to be a part of my life.
Monday and Tuesday of this week that I have spent with people dear to me. But that time still was just few hours of the big twenty-four. I could have put in work after that or before that. I could have absolutely organized it better. Instead, I have used it as an excuse.
Favorite year of my life so far is still the year I have spent in Suzhou. Since that year, there were so many more beautiful things that have happened in my life. Now when I look back and think about why was it so good, I think I am closer to understanding the reason, especially the second semester. I would get up early to workout, then I would attend classes, after the classes I would work as a teacher for a few hours, then study that day classes' content and then go out with friends, or take a late evening walk. China is a very safe country in my opinion, and if I was tired and didn't want to talk to anyone that day I would just go out and enjoy in all of its pretty lights and my walk. That is and was much better rest than sleeping after work is or will ever be.
I want full days in my life. Days that I spend on things that make me happier, challenge me to get stronger or get me closer to my goals. Not days filled with excuses.
Not, since we can't go back in time and these three days have already gone by, the week still has four left. What my mind wants to do right now is actually just drop the rest of the week and start again from Monday, but that would be a very bad choice. That is not a good idea. Life happens only once and there is absolutely still time to make my days and this week successful.
Today I don't have a list of ways that I would give that teach you how to fix a situation like this. Today I just want to tell you that if yesterday wasn't good there is always today. Today is always the best day and today you can at least make a first step to make it better, maybe even fix it all. Don't allow yourself to waste this moment, today or now.
I have put three wins on my "Monthly Wins Page" just because I gave it all today. So let's forget about yesterday and use any hours we have left today. I know I will. I don't want to be a soft person. I am not tired and any kind of excuses I could make makes me that. So I refuse to be one.
Today was amazing and I still have a few hours that I know what I want to fill with.
What are you going to do about today?
With love,
Violeta
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